why always misunderstand me?
cant u be imcomplicated?
sometimes i don know wat is in ur mind...why always has other thoughts before making the things clear?
i know u are good..thx and i appreciate wat u had done
i know u live in ur world and vry happily..maybe..
but pls dont ever tied me up...i dislike ppl to take away my freedom..i like wat i wish to do
u talk a lot yet sometimes is bull shitting to me...
i wanted to have a nice and wonderful trip..but ur appearance is like mother f*cker to me
maybe u still dont know wat is going on....
u can always put me down or look me down and having impression tat i m tat sucking guys
i dont wana give any reasons or excuses as my expression at here is not really good enough..
if u wan any feedback juz hit me up personally..AFTER FEW MONTHS
i dont want to hate anyone including u
so i still can put a smile on my face when i meet u
but juz get away from me now...GO AWAY!!

never talk dosent means dont like to talk
being silence nvr mean i m not enjoy at all

if my words can save and piece the world, y dont i juz shut up?
yeah..i had received many bad comments about myself.
some i have to admit is my fault, some i have my reasons

sorry for the chaos and hates i had brought..
but dont ever isolate me from the world..
i dont like to be alone.
i like the ppl yet hate the ppl..i like freedom...
i will change..promise..to give me some time

”人，不是被事情困扰，而是被他们看待事情的观点所困扰“
（希腊哲学家，Epictetus）

i wont go for the way
i will go to that way, nobody has touched before...

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today's morning..
while i opened my gate prepared to campus
i saw my opposite neighbour, uncle was preparing to bring his son to kindergarden
i turned my head and smiled with him..and he smiled in return as greeting

while i was riding out from carpark..i saw my neighbour, she was one of my childhood
we both smiled when b4 i passed her by

a few meters after her, i saw the couple, ahgal and her bf...
we had not enough time to talk...so juz said hi and bye
and we smiled the moment we met

i juz realise tat a simple smile can make my day so fresh..
anyway i was a little too tired due to late bed time yesterday..

SMILE k ^^

y i so sucks?
y i cant make it my own?
make it to ppl?
y i cant juz be brave enough?

sigh....
no1 understand me....doesnt mean i m hard to be understood
myself dont even give me the chance?


sad..i can only cry in my heart..
when everything goes wrong

T.T

i dont know
   how busy i m this semester
i dont know
   whether i can be so lucky coming days
i dont know
   what will happen to my life next

before this, i wana thank god for my improvement in gamma last sem
it was totally out of my thoughts and expectation that i will get lower or worsen....
m satisfy my results..my efforts paid ^.^

delta..1st semester 1st week i d told to have two projects to be done..ZZZZzzzzz
both are doing robots..will doing two kinds of robots-1 is INDIVIDUAL F1 auto car and another is robot/machines tat support and carry max 60 kg weighted person
crazy..
in addition, i taking japanese language too....yeah for beginner like me..
i attended the 1st lec and it sounds like plenty of exercises and stuffs to do also...

@@

i hope i can go thru this well and enjoy happily..
wish me luck..haha

LETS GO..it is so lagging while i blogging this!!...zzz
juz follow the photos..they tell......>.<


after final exam..its time to clean up...books,notes,table were cleaned as well
this is my lucky star-star tortoise!!
it nvr bathe for months @@
suppose to bathed her a month ago..wahaha
i found her heavier and larger during the wash

juz after the last paper on tuesday,ize and his bro,dex and me went to penang
we were there chilling with katsu
we embarked midnite and had a slp at zero's house..senary taken at his apartment

penang...penang bboys are dope and frenly..penang has two dams, this is one of it
they brought us toured here..is above kek lok si actually

here we are...KATSU, international japanese bboy man..he was wearing 00 t at the back
he is a nice story teller..he affraids of ghost..lol

next stop was kek lok si...
unfortunately it rained cats and dogs in the morning after we managed to get down from top hill
we had a wet tour at here



i not sure how tall this buddha is...anyway it is around 100 of me..lol





besides, we went to the beach too..
jet ski and banana boat were juz nice enough..katsu got himself  into the parachute driving by a boat
i m sure he having tat fascinating sensation on top
battle of the month..this is wat the bboying scene in penang..it is dope!!
i joined and i was defeated at quarter final..hoho..
and..the unlucky things---i injured my right knee..ouch,swollen, greeny red if u can observe clearly..pain
95 percent recovered now

i managed to get home on friday, supposed i need 2 more stays at kl for boty 2009,damn i missed jor
as i needed to prepare for my diving trip to dayang..wohooo
sunday 12pm noon began our journey to mersing by bus
strange, i found this when i was waiting the bus to come

this is the dive table use to calculate pressure group
any divers need to plan b4 a dive..

i got this coral...my "lucky coral" i called..hehe..when we were having confined water skills at the shore

it came to my side when i was having dinner..zzz..so manja oo

dayang island is so beartiful..we needed a 4 hour boat ride from mersing jetty
2nd last day,thusday evening while we were having a boat dive with leisure divers
here,all except those wearing spec are fresh divers..hehehe

no tv, no internet, only handphone,ppl, water and sea...and milky sand beach..the air was indeed fresh and cool,ZERO POLUTION!

many of us got the chance to c the real nemo...it actually named after the coral "anemosis"(not sure correct)..haha

certified open water and advance open scuba divers!!
this is the temporary piece of paper @@..will get the card within 3 months

durian season..my dad's fruit farm at tampin..it seems left over for a long time

there were still some durians, but i nvr eat

my mum's home..machap baru..
and this is the kampung boy..chill!!!


holiday left one more week....juz chill the rest of days..

^.^

生日顏色

＊橙色＊
你總會對自己做過的事付責任，亦很懂得怎樣待人接物。你常常給自己定下很多目標和競爭對象。你很難去相信別人，包括你的朋友，但當你認為他是可信的話，你將會把他當成永遠的知己。

This test seem accurate to me, so just share it here.
Please tell me if u think it accurate too.Enjoy...

12月23日~ 01月01日=紅色
01月02日- 01月11日=橙色
01月12日- 01月24日=黃色
01月25日- 02月03日=粉紅色
02月04日- 02月08日=藍色
02月09日- 02月18日=綠色
02月19日- 02月28日=啡色
02月29日- 03月10日=水藍色
03月11日- 03月20日=石灰色
03月21日 =黑色
03月22日- 03月31日=紫色
04月01日- 04月10日=深藍色
04月11日- 04月20日=銀色
04月21日- 04月30日=白色
05月01日- 05月14日=藍色
05月15日- 05月24日=金色
05月25日- 06月03日=奶油色
06月04日- 06月13日=灰色
06月14日- 06月23日=栗色
06月24日 =灰色
06月25日- 07月04日=紅色
07月05日- 07月14日=橙色
07月15日- 07月25日=黃色
07月26日- 08月04日=粉紅色
08月05日- 08月13日=藍色
08月14日- 08月23日=! 綠色
08月24日- 09月02日=啡色
09月03日- 09月12日=水藍色
09月13日- 09月22日=石灰色
09月23日 =黃綠色
09月24日- 10月03日=紫色
10月04日- 10月13日=深藍色
10月14日- 10月23日=銀色
10月24日- 11月11日=白色
11月12日- 11月21日=金色
11月22日- 12月01日=奶油色
12月02日- 12月11日=灰色
12月12日- 12月21日=栗色
12月22日 =黃綠色

＊紅色＊
你的可愛十分惹人喜愛！對愛情你很揀擇但又常常在戀愛， 也喜歡被愛的感覺。你有著清新的氣質和開朗的個性， 但有些時侯也會變得'多愁善感'。 和別人相處的時侯你表現得很友善和溫柔，所以很多人願意和你親近。你喜歡跟友善和隨和的人做朋友。

＊奶油色＊
你愛和別人競爭，失敗的感覺你最受不了。極愛運動和戶外活動，你的性格開朗也值得別人信賴。對愛情你會表現得很小心，不會輕易愛上一個人。但一旦找到你生命中的伴侶時，你絕不會讓他跑掉。

＊藍綠色＊
你最注重自己的外表。對選擇愛侶的要求甚高。你! 每每擁有清晰的頭腦去思考和解決難題，又不易犯錯。你喜歡在人群中被重視，也因此令你容易認識到新朋友。

＊灰色＊
你很好動，也很有吸引力。你永不會把想說的話藏在心，總會抒發自己的感情。但有時會變得較自私。你渴望得到別人的注意，討厭不公平的對待。你很風趣，也懂得在適當時侯說適當的話，常常也令到身邊的人快樂。

＊綠色＊
你總能和新相識的朋友相處得很好。你不算是一個害羞的人，但有時侯你的說話每每傷害了別人。你渴望得到愛侶的注意，也較喜歡'被愛'的感覺，大多數的時間你總是在等待你生命中的另一半出現。

＊金色＊
你很清楚什麼應該做、什麼不應該做。性格開朗又好交際。


＊粉紅色＊
對任何事你總是全力己赴的，還有你很愛照顧其他人。但你不是一個容易滿足的人，常有消極的想法。你常祈望你的愛情像童話故事一樣美麗和完美。

＊黃色＊
你是一個又天真又'甜'的人。常獲得別人的信任，亦有很強的領導能力。當要做決定或選擇的時侯，你總是做對了決定。還有，你常常朣憬著一段浪漫的戀情。

＊栗色＊
你有一個聰明的腦袋。也是一個自我的人，常依自己的喜好來做事，有時會因為不大理別人的感受而惹上麻煩。對於愛情你很有耐性，當你找到你要找的那一位後，你不會再愛上別人。

＊橙色＊
你總會對自己做過的事付責任，亦很懂得怎樣待人接物。你常常給自己定下很多目標和競爭對象。你很難去相信別人，包括你的朋友，但當你認為他是可信的話，你將會把他當成永遠的知己。

＊紫色＊
你是一個神祕的人，從不自私，也很難對任何人和事發生興趣。你的狀態永遠是說不定的，是一個情緒化的人。很受周遭的人歡迎，但有是你會做出愚笨的舉動，記性也不太好。你最喜歡與一些有著真性情的人做朋友。

＊石灰色＊
你是一個冷靜的人，但常給自己壓力。你常常在小事上挑剔，又容易妒忌。你不大會定下來，但你可愛的性格能獲得朋友的信任也樂於跟你接近。

＊黑色＊
你樂於接受挑戰，因為你擁有接受挑戰的勇氣。但你並不喜歡改變你自己的生活方式。一旦你落實了一個決定，你會長久地朝著這個方向走。你的愛情也是充滿挑戰和有點與別不同。

＊黃綠色＊
你是一個心腸軟和帶給別人溫暖的人。你與家人和朋友的關係良好。十分討厭暴力，清楚什麼應該做什麼不應該做。你也十分善良和樂觀，又很知足，並不會輕易妒忌別人擁有什麼。

＊啡色＊
你很愛運動，整個人都充滿活力。但別人很難去接近你，話雖如此，你很容易投入一段感情。但當你發現你在那段感情中得不到你想要的東西時，你會立即放棄，也會復完得很快。

＊藍色＊
你對自己沒有信心，也很挑剔。你很有藝術天分，也很容易去愛上一個人，但當愛情來的時侯，你只是用你的'感覺'去愛，而並非用你的心去愛。

＊銀色＊
你是一個有豐富想像力和害羞的人，但你樂於接受新事物和新嘗試。你喜歡挑戰自己。學習新的事物時很快會上手，遇強越強。但你的愛情生活通常也比較多挫折和困惑。

＊深藍色＊
你是一個很吸引人的發光體，也很愛惜自己的生命。你對身邊所有事物都帶著強烈的感覺。你是一個容易'意亂情迷'的人。如果有人把你激怒了，你很難會原諒他。

＊白色＊
你的人生充滿著夢和理想。你對周遭的事有點漠不關心，容易妒忌。你是較為獨特的一群，有時侯，你心中想法總會比別人高深一點。

＊水藍色＊
你的感覺來去如風。你的生活也帶點孤單，很愛旅遊。你對待別人很真誠，但太容易受別人的影響。對你來說，尋找愛情是一件很難的事，也容易在愛中迷失，令你很容易便被愛情所傷。

sad...was quite a long time i abandoned my blog!!!
can i dont update u..forever and ever?
if u still can do a little in my life...haha yeah i will keep going..DONT WORRY!




so many things to update..i really dont know which one to start 1st..just random ar

1st...HAPPY BELATED 21ST BIRTHDAY TO MYSELF!
thanks to those bboys and guys and gals celebrating it.LOVE YA!
i love the hat, the fishes, the fans and recycle bins as my presents lol....


bbq at my house during midterm break..brilliant random idea to make it ..haha
mum was preparing a cake for me at the night to celebrate my bthday even though it was late  few days..yeah thank you mum


and tat was really stupid period..for the moment i felt totally uncomfortable, breathless!!
3 midterms(each weeks once),lab reports, assignments, and 3 events eventualy (tech time,autoshow,chinese chess tournament) and my cyberp project(GG nite)........some performances to be done..etc


i m not greed...as i mentioned b4 it was my unlucky_bad lucks!wtf....god s trying to kiss my ass......


everythings seems tough...

sad

tired....

can i shout?


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it was juz like hell!...struggling and struggling...

watever,how tough izit...there wil be an end la!!!somehow many things blinded me and darkened part of my life...i was not myself..
that i can think optimistic all the while...
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yeah..the hardest had past..piss off man! so relaxing now...hahaha

performing in tech time, autoshow and mumos nite.....looks like i m having more than myself..lol
doing those events and stuffs bring mysely tired..but happy as the results, and most appreciately things is knowing new frens..new thing
i learnt quite a lot!!






i will be more supportive and happy!

always be fresh and humble (knowledge from floortactics.com)..hehe

I M LATE!!
why wasnt i wish ppl "happy bthday" in time??
i should have a kick on my butt to remember things.......zzzzz

juz wish jie happy 21st bthday!!
wahaha..dont worry u will get ur present soon  ^^


didi apologise for lately wish
hehe

wat is this????


this is so called amplitude modulation waveform (am signal) which we deal with it in our day!!

SUNDAY
participated an event , COLOR THE PATH charity run!
10km route from mmu to MITC..but actually around 7++km
yeah congrats to myself..for getting 1ST RUNNER UP..
i had completed the route within 35-40 minutes..yay
many ppl didnt believe what i got...sad
HAHAHAHAHA
although exhausted but pretty happy!! (seldom get chance to go on the stage and received medal ^^)

injuries...everywhere..can be found around my body!



i have two wounds around my left hands..recovering well
unfortunately yesterday just accidentally bended my left arm while practicing flips or tricks..so painful TT
izit these are the things we get from bboying? we did sacrifice a lots...
even though my fren ylun injure his neck...
no matter how we still need to keep going on..we fall, we drop, we injure...tears, bloods, sweats..
our way to be a BBOY!!



back to this few weeks...had juz finished tech time event few weeks to go..i thought i can simply rest for a moment
yet, it was juz a starting..for EVERYTHINGS!
being a leader of project cyberpreneurships, it is still okay with me! we are doing an event ~grogeous and glamorous night 2009~aka GG nite LOL
anywhere we only have a discrete of 10 of ppl..10 PPL IS GOING TO DO it...sounds a bit crazy..i think we will suffer and busy like bugs..
nvm, then comes to maraton lab sessions..average i m having 2 labs a week..why everytings seems so packed?as usual, i need to do and do and submit the lab reports T.T
midterm tests(not midterm break) are around the corner..ofcoz i need time to prepare..
also the stupid test assignments wat wat wat la......
besides that, chinese chess tornament (1 of the committees) and autoshow will fall on the same weekends!!within 11th and 12th april..i m sure there are meetings as they only have one more month to go..

somemore.......
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juz registered as the participants of SUMO ROBOTS COMPETITION yesterday with 3 of my frens..need to undergo some of the workshops held in this semester.....
OH YEAH..assignments' submission dates....they are fews >.<
and performances at somewhereelse are still pending for a moment..


RADIKAL FORCE bboy crews from singapore is having a 11th aniversary (if not mistaken)at zouk,singapre on 14th march..rf jam for sure i wont miss!!
i wana CYPHER and meet many internatinal bboys there...i wan dance, i wan cypher, and ofocz I WANT MONEY la!! malaysia ringgit ---->>> singapore dollar!!

beggining of the semester break on june, i may taking up a diving license course organised by MMU scuba....1.6K..just for a life time diving license!!
i need to collect money from now, and having my "bread's plan".........sigh



i need...
i need...i need...i need...
i need...
i need...i need...
i need...i need...
i need...i need...


i need...i need...i need...i need...


seriously i need TIME...and MONEY! where to hunt for ?
i guess so i need to find a BANKER gf ....wahahhaha!!

i m not greed for all the things..i juz couldnt understand why must everythings goes at the same times..sad..
if possible, give me 48 hours a day..i will be vry THANKFUL..hehe

the busiest trimester i ever had!

tmr...i need to wake up at the break of dawn...to make sure myself is there for COLOUR THE PATH charity walk organised by one of the club  in mmu
yeah..i m coming..to donate and colour ppl's life and mine..peace


SO TIRED.....

“I am just like any other college boy who puts the time most people would spend in going to parties, etc., into going to the studio and practicing,” he says. “I don’t like to think that I’m a b-boy celebrity. I am honored and flattered by b-boys, if any, who are inspired by my dancing.”


“I go to work from eight to five,” Ben continues. “Then head to the studio and practice from six to eight. I usually train four or five days a week, two hours per session. But if we have a competition coming up, then we practice till the break of dawn!”


”Stay off the Internet, unless you wanna use it on a positive way, rock the cyphers in every event you go, study the music genres of funk and soul and how music makes this dance unique from others, and you’re already halfway there,” Ben advises. “You don’t have to think and practice 24/7 for you to become a better b-boy. Sometimes you gotta skip practice, go out and just experience the different wonders of life, and it’ll be of more value and will definitely show up in your dance.”

~benny ben~

a non full time bboy? u guys should read...

Breaking it Down with Benny Ben


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“That’s a part of Alien Ness that people don’t know,” Ness says. “Because I just jump out and dance on command and be the Alien Ness that people expect him to be. I never practice, and stretching is very painful to me.


Ness is not a practicing Buddhist. He does not practice b-boying.

NO NEED to PRACTISE ??
omg..he is ALIEN NESS !

READ The Book of Ness

i juz dislike...perhaps i hate most

monday 8am
tuesday 8am

thusday 9am
friday 9am

so f**k up....
i juz cant have enough slp during this days..so tired
the days are juz like death to me...i could even fall asleep in class...sigh
i think so must have some changes..tat s SLEEP before 12am..
sorry guys, i cant hang up late or yamcha during this days for this semester!
friday and tuesday is ok to me..hehe..weekends as well...

keep fresh guys !!

peace

wish everyone happy cny for the last day!!

somethings...some ppl



orange??
orange team??
u mobile orange group??
WHO ARE THEM?


3 2 1...
closer bit.....


oh...a group of gals ><



a couple is taking photo?




saw the words.."oh hai, i m techie"?
yeah we are techie..lol..orange team..hmmm
 
it was the meeting on wednesday nite at studio b..tech time committees general meeting  and photo session
we are from tech time publicity devision,,say hi to them...hehehe

our publicity head division is richard..sorry nvr have ur photo here ><
anyway thanks for the cards..total two decks of pokers..we had big 2 after the group discussion..lol

6 gals in the photo shown..they are the members of the group..i have no doubts that this group was the noisiest one in the family..tats y so many photos had been taken before the exact photo session began..walao..sssssssss
should introduce them? (2nd row from left_queenie assistant head division, wan yee, milan...1st row from left_ hamizah, felicia,huey kuen)
to ac MILAN , "i m a guy who have a big stomach always sit in front on pc and nvr have sports" !!  @@

the person in last pic is my bro,ex assignment member and badminton partner.. wei hsiang..unfortunately he was not in our group..he is the security head division, nice ya!!

besides having some sap point, we work together, we make more frens, taking experience, and we having funs!! so great to join event!

week 2 we will having a prelaunch at clc concorse..guys (from mmu la) pls check this out!!
week 3 we will have our tech time event at dataran pahlawan...so dont hesistate to drop urself at there!!

well i guess i will be busy for the coming days..how?? with lots of workloads and tutorials...TT
is OKAY! juz come on..i will kill all of you....hahahhahahhaha

LIFE

WHAT IS A LIFE? can any1 tell me? why we live in this world? life is a road? or a burning candle?a game?


planned to blog juz after exam but didnt feel so..moodless to blog..
should be vry happy everytime after final exam..and the happy holiday was there for me to plan to.......

indeed, this exam week was my NIGHTMARE..i suffered a lot..kept thinking and thinking..lots of formula..lots of sadness..although juz two subjects but really could take my life anytime..i was turning here and there on my bed for 2-3 hours before i could actually felt asleep..sigh

struggling around in my mind,in this world..when finding for some1 to listen to me,looking at my handphone hundreds of contacts but only fews came to consideration..OMG..

flash back..i was really a happy and easy going when i was in my foundation year..i shared watever i could..i helped ppl to my best..i could even borrow my assignments to frens and had their copies..help them revise during final.....vry good????not actually..but i had my reasons..perhaps more happiness and joys and memories...

when growing elder..frens getting lesser and lesser..true frens getting few..i saw how realistic the world and ppl are..i was a little boy since secondary school..i didnt hav much right to decide..i was explored to everythings i dont want to,and dislike to..i dont like,i really dont like

sad..the world is real,unless it is fake!






anythings, i dont wish to care more about, live life to the fullest and choose a life so called "the road not taken"..hehe


before this, wish everyone happy chinese niu year..
shen ti jian kang
xue yue jing bu
shi yue ru yi
stay handsome and preety


belows are the things i did before and during cny


we had 2 weeks extra holiday which were trimester break (3 weeks) before cny..cleaning and arranging stuffs were carried out..besides that only bboying and games..a bit of boringness ha

as i had mentioned earlier,i would have my fish back!! yeah, i bought them..and care them every moment..and they juz need to swim and live healthily..lol


bought 4 red blue,4 orange and one cast fish..each of the 1st two species found dead because of non-water-conditioning water..lol
and a tropical plant..hehe


cny's eve..as usual my family and i went tampin for reunion dinner..as well as all the relatives attended the gathering
at here, we had fun together..we played card games(exclude gambling ><),online games,ps3 and mahjong
of course we ate and drank all we could..really happy hours
this year we nvr pray at nite for welcoming the 1st day of cny (nian chu yi) due to the passed away of my grandma

the 1st day of cny, we went to grandpa house at machap baru (mother's side)..here, we mingled with our jiujiu and ah yi,mostly from singapore,and also cousins..i like the scenenary of this kampung,it was so picturesque

the rest of the days in melaka..we had karaoke at dreambox, playing ball fever from 1am to 4am..omg i was really tired as i had not enough slp almost all the nite..yet it was really fun and happy period..yeah i hav a big warm family,cool..can i hav another cny next week?

i will attach the photos soon ><

now..3rd trimester juz kick off..both monday and tuesday, i have 8am class each..zzzzz
arrggghhhhh...wat to do,juz force myself to get up and slp in class..hoho

another new year, another new trimester, another new life?
watever it is..i juz wana have my peace life..my life of bboying..my life at campus..my life of frens and family..
things could past, and time couldnt wait..go for my dream, go for my wishes and hopes..i will work even harder..i will

BECOME STRONGER AND be a man one day!


HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR !!

说好的幸福呢 - 周杰伦


你的回话凌乱着 在这个时刻
我想起喷泉旁的白鸽  甜蜜散落了
情绪莫名的拉扯  我还爱你呢
而你断断续续唱着歌 假作没事了
时间过了 走了 爱情面临选择
你冷了 倦了 我哭了
离开时的不快乐 你用卡片手写着
有些爱只给到这 真的痛了

怎么了 你累了 说好的 幸福呢
我懂了 不说了 爱淡了 梦远了
开心与不开心 一一细数着 你再不舍
那些爱过的感觉都太深刻 我都还记得
你不等了 说好的 幸福呢
我错了 泪干了 放手了 后悔了
只是回忆的音乐盒还旋转着 要怎么停呢


你的回话凌乱着 在这个时刻
我想起喷泉旁的白鸽  甜蜜散落了
情绪莫名的拉扯  我还爱你呢
而你断断续续唱着歌 假作没事了
时间过了 走了 爱情面临选择
你冷了 倦了 我哭了
离开时的不快乐 你用卡片手写着
有些爱只给到这 真的痛了

怎么了 你累了 说好的 幸福呢
我懂了 不说了 爱淡了 梦远了
开心与不开心 一一细数着 你再不舍
那些爱过的感觉都太深刻 我都还记得
你不等了 说好的 幸福呢
我错了 泪干了 放手了 后悔了
只是回忆的音乐盒还旋转着 要怎么停呢

怎么了 你累了 说好的 幸福呢
我懂了 不说了 爱淡了 梦远了
我都还记得
你不等了 说好的 幸福呢
我错了 泪干了 放手了 后悔了
只是回忆的音乐盒还旋转着 要怎么停呢

part1

today..1st day of new year 2009
everythings seems new and fresh
yeah i wana another new life..with new hope new resolution new wish...new new new

i wana to be a good son
i wana to be a dope bboy
i wana to be a nice bf
i wana be more friendly, happy
as well as remaining a good student..hehe
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watever also want la ><

back to here..today's feeling not tat good..suppose to read and study for final on next week..but then "today is 1st day of new year should rest and enjoy" came to my mind..so, arranging myself my goal my thoughts today..haha

back again to previous year,2008 31st dec..lol..tat nite i nvr go for countdown..juz went yamcha with 2 of my bros at macd..this nite i couldnt slp well..i kept on thinking..ABOUT HER!

2009..is it the year to start over a new and FORGOT THE PAST?anythings can be forgotten but not to forget ppl..i have no doubts to this statement "nobody learns how to forget ppl in life"..yes especially the person u like and falling in love to..

NO..i shouldnt choose to forget her..indeed i should tell her my feelings..this was nvr done until i realise that she is leaving me..sigh..blame myself for nvr looking into the matter and take it seriously..REGRET may too late..i might miss the time you waiting for me..and hurt you indirectly..TT..yeah i m stupid, i hate the feeling being dumped, tats y i dont hav the braveness??.................

sometimes, i will think about our memories..the day we went to zoo, the feeling when u were around me, the moment you behind me on bicycle....heartache,pain..and even though i was not feeling well when i saw another guy beside u.....its because i felt in LOVE with u tats y i care!!! i admit..yeah i did tried to increase my workload so that i wont think..i dont want to think...yet all and all were in vain..i still think about it today..WHYYYYYY!

i think the reason should be vry simple..IM RUNNING away from reality, and didnt ever know how to appreciate..i couldnt escape anymore..i need to be responsible..promise, from now.

i knew i had done a lot of mistakes..if i end it now i wont forgive myself..i wil regret..
i m really SORRY and i had learnt my lessons..pls forgive me..I M SORRY
I WISH SHE WOULD GIVE ME THE 2ND CHANCE!!I WISH....

okay i will ask her about it later...today 1st jan 09.



part2

2nd part means ending?i wonder it is juz a beginning.......

as i said i will ask her..
okay..i asked watever stuck v me the whole time..it seems like the more i ask and i know..the more i feel guilty..right i m really wrong..indeed vry sinful

today 2nd jan 09_00am to o2am..offlined and went to bed..i couldnt slp as predicted..kept on thinking and regreting..i was known tat her feelings towards me had gone,no more..she asked me to let go myself as she did last time..and i will meet another one day.....

gosh..some1 u found whom right to u ask you to forget about her..how can i? perhaps i should treasure my love and future, to be responsible and face everythings..i learnt my lessons and have to continue..the nite my thinkings was running wild..for the 1st time i lost myself,and logics..i couldnt think properly.......falling down to a deep

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so dark which i hate the most..i could make her changed, till she could lost feelings on me..i had been told tat, everythings will be fine with time..why only i must hav the choice to forget and wait? why i cant i take all the responsibility rights now? is it it is too late so i was not given this chance? i really dont feel like letting go like that by time.., instead need to face and take all the consequences and responsiblity..sorry for my cruelty and ignorant..u forgave me but i cant..i dont know how to forgive myself..sob

i really wish that u are lying to me..purposely ignoring me and hurting me now..torture me torture me..........

m now deadly alive..thoughts of, should i follow the path ppl did in newpaper?i hate things unsolve, undone...

dont worry..i wont do the stupid things..i m okay..i need to be happy

yeah..i m vry happy..she d declared her feelings to me last time..i must happy..1,2,3..happy...ish..yet why my tears still dropping?? i m boy,man shouldnt drop tears like wat m i did? maybe i have a little bit different..i was given a more brittle heart..hate ><



yk will cry if...he cares about her
yk will cry if...he falls in love with her
yk will cry if...he hurts her
yk will cry if...he being so bad

yeah he cried whenever the nite he thoughts of her, i know the lesson TT
it is too late to apologise.....




The greatest medicine would be to let go and let time cure the wound
-r u sure?
-how about the scar left behind?